What an interesting question I pondered about during meditation. The overwhelming energy of Source was received within 3 minutes today when I was putting awareness on the 3rd eye. The smile jolted me into a land of bliss when I thought about being myself last week. I had been waiting on two women and Cindy, the one paying enjoyed the quote; “when you walk with an open heart you start to realize you’re running.” “I like that, where’s it from,” she asked? “That’s mine actually, it opens chapter 5 in my new book titled, Thought Outlines the Vision Emotion Colors It In.” I had her attention and so I sat opposite her in the booth while light recognized light.
Because I was so open about myself, she mirrored me and opened up about her faith. Now she wasn’t a typical Baptist, “oh you where raised Catholic, I’m sorry.” But she held a firm belief that the way to the Father is through his Son. I acknowledged her passion because it was clear that she was genuine. So much so, she invited me to church, took my number, and said she might know someone who could help me with my project.
I was myself and told her, “I’m not going to go to church.” She must have been in sales because next she says, “I challenge you to go. Is that fair?” I started laughing and said “golly, she’s closing me,” hitting the table as the amusement ensued. It must have been my use of the term ‘Christ Consciousness’ which she hadn’t heard before that fueled the invite.
It’s extraordinary when I think if I let my walls down the other person will usually follow suit. It’s as if it’s easier to form compounds and bonds because we seek them; and the opportunities to be ourselves. There’s no need to be small, everyone is an expert at something.
Presently, Cindy hasn’t reached out and in sales that lead is old. It goes to show the importance of what Dr. Joe Dispenza opened up to me, a human has 70,000 thoughts a day! Just thinking back to our 7-minute conversation at 2pm on a Thursday probably registered less than 500, not enough to close. I’ll remember more of our talk than her appearance. She was in her 50’s, blonde short-hair, light eyes, and fit; but if I saw her again, I wouldn’t be able to immediately place her. So what’s the point here, Mr. Stu?
Well, I suppose I looked fondly on my ability to be myself with a guest, neighbor, who become more than a number on my tables served stat sheet. The effort seems minimal but is huge! There was no downside to our table chat and she tipped me well over 20%. Even though the desired outcome didn’t materialize it had a chance. “You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take,” says Wayne Gretzky.
I can recall being on serious basketball courts and scared to death to enter the game against players that were bigger and possibly better than me. When they let the little guy in, I immediately sunk a 3 from top of the key. It was my bread and butter. There seem to be times when there is pressure to be ourselves and others when it comes so easy. How can one avoid pain and gain pleasure comfortability in their own skin?
For me when I do something I’m not an expert at but I enjoy, such as painting or freestyling I ask myself “What’s the worst that will happen?” “Will I lose stature?” “Will I lose respect?” “Will I be ridiculed?” When I started training in yoga it wasn’t expected or all that well received but it never bothered me because I come from the DDPY school, “not your momma’s yoga.” Ha! This experience enabled me to become more of myself by letting down the walls.
Identifying oneself as a, fill in the blank, (writer, engineer, nurse) doesn’t really make us ourselves. It’s only a present adjective of the avatar. Being completely free to pursue what you think, hear, and feel without fear, scarcity, and separation opens the path to answering the question; what is it really like to be yourself?
